Christmas Affective Disorder; not technically ‘a thing’ (that I know of) but more of a narrowed down version of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) that I usually find myself prone to at this time of the year. Apparently it isn’t just me though, and having spoken to a few people it seems a lot of us don’t get swept up in the Christmas cheer quite as quickly as we’re expected to!
I always tend to bum out around Christmas and I’m not really sure why, although my over-analytical mind tends to rationally suggest the likely reasons (I’m single this year so that could be why, I’ve neglected my social life in favour of other things so I haven’t seen my friends much, that could also be why) but I think it’s just that around this time of year I get overly reflective and focus more on the areas of my life that are lacking than the ones that are succeeding. It’s a mindset I think, and I’m trying not to fight it too much, instead I’m accepting it, riding it out and anxiously awaiting the arrival of 2013 so that I can crack on with normality again.
The end of the year is a reflective time for a lot of people as it’s easy to start considering what you set out to achieve and measure that against what you actually achieved. Resolutions really don’t help – or certainly not for me anyway – as every single year I set myself a list of ten overly optimistic goals that I haven’t a hope in hell of achieving which is the very definition of setting myself up for failure. Thankfully, now I’m a little older (something else to over-think and bum out about, I’m sure) I just give myself credit for any of the resolutions that I have achieved and for 2013 I’m going to try and be a bit more realistic.
NYE is the night where we’re all supposed to spend a fortune on a night out that would normally cost considerably less, and the onus throughout the night is on how much fun we should be having. There’s so much pressure! It’s a special night that only comes around once a year and everyone is in good spirits so there is absolutely no logical reason as to why I shouldn’t be having the absolute time of my life. Yet I usually find NYE quite underwhelming (painting myself as quite the misery guts I know) as I resent paying £30 to access a venue that would normally charge less than a tenner, just to find myself squashed into a room full of people who are clearly having a much better time than me, or if not then they’re at least hiding it very well. Maybe that’s my problem, I need to fake it to make it…?
Anyway, this has turned into quite a ramble but the point is just to say that if you’re like me, and you face the holiday season with a sense of mild dread yet you’re not really sure why, my advice would be to just try and ride it out, don’t over-think it and know that there are plenty of others feeling the exact same way; some of whom are probably just doing a good job at keeping their feelings hidden.
Misery Geek xx